Trusting God right after you feel let down (that reminds me of a Netflix show, 'The Let Down' Check it out! Thank me later), is one of the hardest things to do. On the one hand, we are mere mortals, and we are at his mercy, so who are we to complain? Did you hold His measuring tape when He created the borders of the water? 👀👀👀
On the other hand, we've been told how loving this God of ours is, and how He is our father (He's a Good Good Father...I know you know the lyrics). So when you completely believe Him for something, and it doesn't work out, how do you move on from that? How do you trust Him with something different when you don't understand why the first one didn't work out? You have heard and read stories in the Bible of how He always shows up for people eventually, but it's hard to look up and hope when every day, every hour, you are reminded of your situation and how it sucks. It gets to the moments in the day where the stories from the Bible and from those around you that used to give you hope, now seem as though they were mocking you. It starts to seem like the God who showed up for them isn't in your court, or maybe you are not doing enough to help yourself.
In addition to that, people in your life who may have the best intentions sometimes make it worse. Talking about your trying situation to other people takes more strength than people realize. It often feels like God gives enough strength to get through gracefully one day at a time. Reiterating to people why you're in this situation, breaking it down one step at a time, going through all the painful emotions again, requires more strength that you don't seem to have (for real!). To go back to the start of the story to explain to people brings back all the thoughts and doubts that you struggled and still struggle to put behind you—again requiring more strength. As a result, it is more convenient to want to isolate yourself from a lot of social interactions and limit yourself to people who are already aware of your situation.
Then, you think to yourself, ' Maybe I'm here for a reason.' The problem is, you may not be in a situation where you could wander off and reflect on why you are here. You have responsibilities. Frustration sets in because you feel trapped in a place where you don't want to be, where you think your life is at a standstill, and you're clueless to why, but you can't often stop to think because you have to face what's in front of you. You begin to think that maybe God wants me to focus on what's in front of me. Just when you think that's working, your mind reminds you of how the people you are focusing on have direction in their lives and how you don't. That alone can zap your strength down to 50%. Though they might love you, the people around you have no idea how it hurts and what you are going through. They may see you at your 50% and wonder why you have to look so tired all the time, and why you can't seem to be grateful for what you do have, and how you're letting your situation get the best of you.
I write this, not to give you a reason to stay mad at God or your situation, but to show you that you're not alone. If I, a baby girl for life, can trust through the pain to figure out His plan for my life, surely you can.
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"Those who know you Lord, will trust you; you do not abandon anyone who comes to you" Psalm 9:10
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